I’m here to annoy you with a story. I promise to keep it short. Don’t roll your eyes at me knowing that’s not possible! lol
I want to know who you are surrounding yourself with on and offline.
Do you have your tribe, your person, your people, your BFF, your ride or die?
Are you in-between people or groups you would consider calling any of the above?
I’ve gone through huge changes in the last decade and that includes who I’m surrounding by. I lost touch with my BFF as we both got busy with life and family. Then we hooked back up again and it was amazing to have that connection back. No one can compete with over 35 years of friendship. Good or bad, she knows me and will always know me better than any person on the planet.
I’ve been lost in other groups of friends because of my lack of confidence during those times. I probably lost some good friends along the way. It may be time to reach out and see if we can connect again.
But, those that are in my life right now are killing it. I’ve found women that will give me a giant hug and call my shit out. Being a strong personality, that isn’t easy for others to do. I had to find women that realize I’m loud, but I don’t bite.
A week ago I had a giant hug and “put those big girl panties on” “you can do it” type of day.
I freaked the F out. Totally lost it. Hyperventilating. Panic attack. Freaked out.
And my peeps were there to listen as I typed out nonsense to them and just let it out. After reading what I typed to them the next day, I was shaking my head. T-R-A-I-N-W-R-E-C-K status.
Letting it out was what I needed in order to get control back.
Our house went on the market February 28th and it was way more emotional than I thought it would be. We still had 3 projects left to finish up the night before and both hubby & the youngest weren’t going to be home until 5. I now have track practice so I’m not home in the afternoon either. PLUS, I had to get my client work done during the day.
I admit that I have control issues. I recognize them and I work hard at squashing them down unless they are useful. But, there was too much going on that was out of my control. The not knowing is something I don’t do well with. (who does?) The realtor texted me the afternoon before and said she had two VERY serious buyers wanting to look at the house right away and it set me off.
We have a plan for where we are going while we wait to find property and build. Even though we have options and won’t have to jump into something nor live in a hotel, I was freaking out at how fast everything was going. It didn’t slow down after that either.
My peeps reminded me to look at all the good. Throwing all my words and advice back at me. I started working through all the positives. Just like I would tell someone if they came up to me freaking the F out.
I’m excited and happy about all the change happening. I really do want it. BUT HOLY CRAP, CHANGE IS SCARY when it’s this big.
We have lived in this house for 20 years. Raised both the kids here in a house that was only supposed to be temporary. I had no idea how hard it was all going to hit me until it did.
I want you to find your peeps. If you’ve lost touch with them, I want you to reach out. Your confidence has a lot to do with the people you surround yourself with, so keep the good ones and let them know!
Thanks for being part of my crew! I hope you consider me one of yours. (blows kisses)
Remember, happiness is a choice. Live with no regrets.